just disappointed

the only thing na sumagi sa brain ko ay magpalabas ng sama ng loob. it wasnever my characteristic na tumira kahit simo ng live. i do it anywhere basta walang makakita. im not a writer kaya pasensya sa makakita nitong note n ito. 1. Job selection. I was happy na grumaduate ako pero hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit wala akong swerte sa trabaho? nasa college ako pero gugugol ako ng extra time to earn 3000 a month to add to my tuition fee. hanggang naka graduate at nagtrabaho sa isang private company, maliit ang sahod, maraming deduction including late ng 2 min., walang free time at always naka focus sa trabaho. di tumagal nag resign ako dahil i felt the screech (tama ba ang term?), tumgal lng ako ng 1 year duun... yehey! hindi naman sa pangungutya , that place is the place to be. hehehehe alam nyu na yun. masaya. took a vacation and chill for a while. somebody called me and offer me a job. they really need me pero ang salary ay mas mababa kesa unang work ko. so, i decided to decline kasi di ko naman feel ang company (they need me because they have on going research and they will just abuse my cpacity but underpaid.) and here come the DepEd, wow! public.... malaki sahod? parang tutorial lng pero kung makautos ang principal parang 50 mil sahod ko... gagawa ba naman ng school paper, choreo here and there, adviser here and there at marami pang iba. parang sakal to the bones. 2. DSPC I was disappointed kasi i did my best and my best wasn't good at all. parang nagtype lng ng essay mga bet ko. parang na baliw kkasi andami daw tao so ended 5th place out of 5 contestant so SHAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!Ano tatapusi ko ba to?